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these lyrics from Wednesday's song are exactly what it feels like on rainy days (in feeling; not necessarily in weather) in Athens. Bogged down, worn out, kinda forlorn. But feeling all of those things second to feeling detached, numb, and jaded. It's weird. It's not very me, is it? Growing up is just as weird and dismal as all of the songs and movies make it seem like it's going to be. But I think it's hopeful too. I'm going to love the versions of me to come and I am going to love the versions of my friends that they will grow into and vice versa and there is so much left to learn and love and appreciate and notice. Just wish it didn't feel so lonely and listless sometimes. I've been listening to 30/90 a lot this week... if that tells you anything.