Psalm 90

 Dave read at leadership last night: 

”Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. Relent, Lord! How long will it be? Have compassion on your servants. Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us, for as many years as we have seen trouble. May your deeds be shown to your servants, your splendor to their children. May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us— yes, establish the work of our hands.“

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭90‬:‭12‬-‭17‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Also this quote

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What's crazy is that

Not everyone feels the compulsive need to record every thought they have and every day that they live... ???

Like damn bitch (enviously), you live like this? Just living day to day, taking it as it comes...? Not force-feed style processing every event and emotion or lack thereof? Oh

(Do I have OCD?)

I have to be a teacher because

 I care too much about the random passerby person that I can't hold it inside and somehow being a teacher feels like doing something about that care. 

Just talked to Bella Turner & it's the same way she talked about knowing she was meant to be on Clarke Central's team. It's the voice in my head that says "you have to be a teacher" when I see a lonely looking person walking in the grocery store. 

I should probably re-read The Secret Life of Bees soon. I feel like that probably connects in some way.

Also the solar eclipse just happened that was awesome. I'm so glad I was at Sunroof with Bella and Reid and Alex when it happened. 

Anywho also just thought about how a lot of my life, especially college years, has been me fighting how much I care. Trying to be casual and to play by how I thought other people feel and live. And so I think and I hope that teaching will be a great channel for my care. What's so bad about taking things seriously? To me it's fun.