Monday, April 08, 2024

I have to be a teacher because

 I care too much about the random passerby person that I can't hold it inside and somehow being a teacher feels like doing something about that care. 

Just talked to Bella Turner & it's the same way she talked about knowing she was meant to be on Clarke Central's team. It's the voice in my head that says "you have to be a teacher" when I see a lonely looking person walking in the grocery store. 

I should probably re-read The Secret Life of Bees soon. I feel like that probably connects in some way.

Also the solar eclipse just happened that was awesome. I'm so glad I was at Sunroof with Bella and Reid and Alex when it happened. 

Anywho also just thought about how a lot of my life, especially college years, has been me fighting how much I care. Trying to be casual and to play by how I thought other people feel and live. And so I think and I hope that teaching will be a great channel for my care. What's so bad about taking things seriously? To me it's fun.