Wednesday, October 02, 2024

Maya and I talking about internal monologues, faith, enneagram 7 manifestations, cerebral vs. visceral dispositions, etc.

 


we both love New York because there is sooooo much & we get to approach like this ^ 

there is so much (ideas, conversations, people, experience) and we it all (enneagram 7 gluttony hello) 

but we do it in different ways but we both just want to experience it all (observing vs. embodying - both in conversation, just with ourselves vs. others). 


I guess I yearn to have the conversations with others that I already have had in my head. 


We also both don't ask for what we want - her b/c she doesn't know and me ... I know what I want but I don't care that I want it ... I will neverrrrr be asking. 


This is the list of things I wrote down that can be the retrospective outline of the beginning of our conversation. 

Maya 

  • how our brain differences affect faith is sooo crazy we didn't even really talk about that 
  • When he was talking about the gospel making its way to our hearts & healing the things that we think no one can forgive - I don't have those things, action wise. They're only "heart" issues (worse? --- ANNNND crazy bc I literally have to be in my head & reflecting in order to even know that these parts of me are there)
  • Greta Getwig 
  • Prayer omg 
  • Also like you're more actively thinking your thoughts than I am - it's like halfway usually for me. Why I write them down - idea of coming back to them & giving them more full thought 
  • Having "a lot on your mind" 
  • This might be taking it too far / an example of how me and you are the two extremes on the continuum but - seeing that the purpose of life on earth is in thinking or doing. Understanding things & talking about them w ppl = the point to me 
    • Interesting how this might apply to how we approach the cross - do I find the idea / meaning of the cross to be more central than the action of the cross? (Yes I think I do)